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terribibble) wrote2023-12-03 05:38 pm
terribibble) wrote2023-12-03 05:38 pm
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Dear Marco,
I figure since we still don't know why people disappear it might be wise to get ahead of things. I don't want to go without getting the chance to say goodbye. I think that's the least fair part of it, that when we lose people here it's always by surprise. I don't want you stuck wondering what to do without me.
So here's what you do: assume I won't come back, or else you'll drive yourself crazy waiting on it. I know this is going to be real hard on you, but I don't want you doing anything drastic that you'll regret later. I don't really know what the rule is on what stays and what goes when someone leaves. As far as I know it's not consistent, because nothing here is. If my records stuck around, put one of those on. Don't let the house get quiet. Make yourself some tea and call up Lup or Lust or someone else you know will help keep you steady. Take things slow and be kind to yourself. This isn't your fault and there isn't anything you could have done to stop it either. If you start blaming yourself just imagine me telling you to quit that nonsense, because that's exactly what I'd do.
I figure since we still don't know why people disappear it might be wise to get ahead of things. I don't want to go without getting the chance to say goodbye. I think that's the least fair part of it, that when we lose people here it's always by surprise. I don't want you stuck wondering what to do without me.
So here's what you do: assume I won't come back, or else you'll drive yourself crazy waiting on it. I know this is going to be real hard on you, but I don't want you doing anything drastic that you'll regret later. I don't really know what the rule is on what stays and what goes when someone leaves. As far as I know it's not consistent, because nothing here is. If my records stuck around, put one of those on. Don't let the house get quiet. Make yourself some tea and call up Lup or Lust or someone else you know will help keep you steady. Take things slow and be kind to yourself. This isn't your fault and there isn't anything you could have done to stop it either. If you start blaming yourself just imagine me telling you to quit that nonsense, because that's exactly what I'd do.
The workshop goes to you. You can do what you like with it. The garage side of it isn't really your thing, I know, so if you want to shut that down or rent it out or something go ahead. It was a clinic before I gutted it so it wouldn't be the first time it's been renovated. The garden's yours too and I wish I'd been able to stay around longer to teach you more, but I've got a basic spreadsheet of when different produce is planted and harvested made up for my own reference that might help you get started. The pigs can go to Lup and Taako's farm if they're a bit much for you to handle. I know they'll be taken care of there.
This Mac Book has all of the notes I've kept over the years, arranged by date and cleaned up for readability. That's my brain, more or less, and it would mean a lot if you'd keep it safe for me. I don't mind if you look through it, there's a lot of good days in there to remember.
Most important: if down the line you meet someone else who makes you happy, I want you to grab onto them with both hands and don't let go. Losing someone you love doesn't mean that's it for you and I figure I'm qualified to say that more than most. After Emma-May I thought I'd blown my one chance, and then I met you and I figured out you get as many chances as you want to give yourself. These years with you have been some of the best of my life. I was so lucky to have the time with you that I did. I want you to focus on that part. I don't want you to be stuck on me for the rest of your life, I want you to be happy.
I love you. It doesn't matter if I'm up in the stars or in some other universe or God knows where. I'll always love you. Please, please watch out for yourself because I can't anymore. If you get the urge to do something stupid and dangerous, ask yourself what I'd do, and then do the opposite of that.
You will be okay. You're a lot stronger than you think you are.
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Last updated November 8th Year 7
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