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it could just be that he's grown up and that'll mean growin apart just a little. when a kid's young they want to hide behind their father's leg but then they hit a point where all they want's to be as far away from you as possible

at least that's what i hear. i never got that far with tate. but once i hit about sixteen all i wanted was to get off the damn farm and it didn't mean i cared for my folks any less

I haven't gotten that far either. Not really. You need time for that, I was supposed to have these three years to watch him grow and gradually wean myself off having him in my household under my authority and adjust to his being a man.

There's been no passage of time, no series of moments of my watching him change and step out and who knows maybe even challenging me directly. I've been given nothing to prepare me for this. Nothing. I wasn't ready, I'm not ready.

[Honestly he's not mentally prepared to deal with Lucius Malfoy having a breakdown right now. He's barely mentally prepared to drag himself out of bed and make it up a single flight of stairs to brush his teeth, as of late. It's just that a Good Friend wouldn't do anything less, and Fiddleford prides himself on being a Good Friend.

It's just that he has no advice he can really give. He doesn't know how to fix this problem. His general approach is going to have to do.]

try and find the good in this. you didnt think you were goin to get to see him grow up at all and sure this is happenin different than you pictured but it's a gift all the same right

Edited 2016-12-13 07:35 (UTC)

It doesn't feel like a

Never mind. Forget that I even brought this up with you, I wasn't planning on talking about this, I honestly only wanted to know you were all right. I don't know what's wrong with me lately.

you're worried about your boy of course youre goin to want to talk about it. i don't mind none. thats what friends are for

but no. no i'm not alright but i'm alive and i'll keep goin. i've done it before. i'll be fine.

Have you tried asking them... it?

[Would that even work? But then again, what other course of action really is there?]

Thank you for listening in any case. And your feedback. I don't know that it would help me any, but there is likely nothing that would help me right now if I'm being honest.

I'm glad that you're here, and well if not perfectly fine just yet. Perhaps my biggest fear is that I'll never get out of this place but everyone I've grown close to will leave.

you won't have to worry about that with me. unless she kicks me out i don't plan on ever goin back.

You really don't want to go home?

there isn't a future for me there. you know that

I know we've spoken of this before. I've forgotten, I suppose. But I do recall your reasons.

I miss my own home so dearly. My world and my magic, my home and my wife. It's difficult for me to remember there are those that are planning to stay on in this place. Or are even happier here than they were where they came from.

i'm not happier here really. it was bad there like it's bad here. but here i have a chance at a future where i do someone some good. knowin how things end up back in gravity falls there's no point livin it out. it's just thirty years of bein a laughingstock livin in a shack in the damn dump before the world explodes.

[Of course he only really knows about this from what he's pieced together from Wendy and Ford. He's filled in the blanks and, naturally, his own guilt and horror has filled them in the worst possible way.]

you don't know your future. there's still a chance it might be a good one. of course you want to go back.

[There's a pause before he responds here, for two reasons. One is that Fiddleford reminds him, he actually does have a way of finding out his own future. At least some of it. He still has yet to question Draco thoroughly, or at all really. Lucius of course assumes all will be well...why wouldn't it be? Still. It would be nice to know.

The second reason he takes some time, is because he's considering something...]

Perhaps if, when, we find our way to escape this place, it would be possible for anyone here to go to any of the worlds of their choosing. Why not, considering, so long as we are making holes in reality? I fail to see why there should be any limits to end destination to an individual.

If that day comes and such a thing occurs, Fiddleford, you would be more than welcome to accompany me to mine.

[It takes him a little while to put together an answer to that. He's felt so awful lately, and the current subject matter has just been making it worse, that such an admission of solidarity and honest care is like being blindsided.

Stanford never would have offered you that says the little petty voice in the back of his mind, and he agrees with it. It doesn't matter that his current contingency plan for stopping the Fog God necessitates him staying behind -- that plan hinges on a lot of hypotheticals. He can't really use it as any sort of guideline.]

that's awful kind of you to offer. truly. if we ever get that far i'd give it real honest thought

y'know provided goin back means bein human again

i wouldn't want to leave marco behind though

[Or Lorna or Percy, but they also have families to go back to. They'd be alright. Marco he's more worried about.]

Obviously yes, I always take it as a given we must reverse what we have been afflicted with first before most of us can even think about home.

[Lucius and Draco at the very least must be returned to the human men, and wizards, they were meant to be. How could they be expected to cope otherwise? He's not even sure expert mediwizards could reverse bodily changes at this level.]

Does he not have a place of his own to go to either?

[Still sour, still controlling, even if he's subtler with Fiddleford than he might be with most others. He doesn't know why McGucket must be so attached to the other man. He's half-crazy, anyway. If not more than half.]

oh no he does. and he'd probably want to go back to it though y'know we've never talked about it really

it's just

the fourth thinks we ought to be together. that has to mean somethin right

I realize he takes a personal interest in us but doesn't that seem a little odd?

That he would be that specific about the two of you?

[Still mistakenly thinks that this is just about them being leadership partners together, not...any other kind of partner.]

He's never said anything about me and Yoshikage needing to be "together", for example, and we joined at near the same time.

oh i don't think it has much to do with timin. marco'd already been livin on the peninsula for months before i showed up, nevermind joined up

[Oh, god. Oh, no. Has being as quiet as he has about this finally bit him in the ass? Is he going to have to explain this to Lucius when he's still working at accepting it himself?]

he gave us matchin rings is the thing. after we destroyed the obelisk. said we were married and everythin though between you and me i don't know if it's exactly legally sound

and it's not like we weren't already

[He starts to type one thing and deletes it a couple of times before ultimately chickening out.]

together

it's just he really obviously thinks we ought to stay that way

You were already

[...Are you kidding him with this?

Why does everyone he befriend here turn out to be--

Alone in his room he groans and presses a hand to his face. Oh, never mind it, now. What's said has been said. He won't rescind his invitation. He'll just have to try and process this later.]

I didn't know. I didn't realize, at all. Did you say something before now and I missed it?

Not to be crass, but what about your wife? I know things between you and her ended in an unfortunate manner but I hadn't imagined it could be that bad.

I have.

[He gazes back down at his fidgeting hands.] Even when... it acknowledges the question, it's just the same old lies over and over again. "I am your god." "You are special." "Do it for me."

... "Why doubt me," he says. It.

[Well. That's a better response than he was hoping for. He'll take it.]

you didn't miss anythin. i've been keepin quiet about it. it's not the sorta thing that comes up that often or should anyway. not that i'm ashamed or anythin i just don't feel the need to make a big fuss

and i like girls just fine. it's not

she left me for entirely unrelated reasons. this is somethin a lot more recent, findin out its possible to like both. i definitely still have a healthy attraction to women

[You're just lucky he's been worn down by having this happen to him, like, three times already, Fiddleford. Otherwise that part of the conversation might have been more awkward.]

It's your personal affair of course. I don't blame you for wanting to keep it private regardless the nuance of your reasoning. Where I come from however people never admit to this sort of thing and so to my knowledge I've never before known anyone, personally, who was anything but what was considered the societal version of normal. By which I do mean of course, married to a member of the opposite sex.

Since arriving here however I have made three separate acquaintances of that persuasion. Four now, with you. And I gather for most here it is a matter considered far more casual and not worthy of even a second's thought. It's been something for me to get used to. Some moments are more a struggle than others. Being repeatedly insulted for my confusion and accused of things does not help.

I intend no offense but I must say I really never would have imagined this of you. You don't at all seem the type. You're so outwardly reserved.

Jesus.

We -- we just have to find a way to drown it out. There's got to be somethin'.

things are awful different in the realities most of them are from because where -i'm- from you sure as hell wouldn't tell anyone about somethin like this. honestly it's good to know i'm the only one that finds it difficult to wrap my head around how casual folks are about it.

it'd be easier if i was just plain gay to be frank with you. it should be one or other. both just seems

[Seems what? Greedy? That's a more generous word for it than others he could use but there's no denying that's the truth of his situation.]

well it's not about bein reserved or not i don't think. i'm not goin to go runnin around on him. i'm not that kind of man.

honestly it doesn't feel all that different from the normal way of doin things. that's whats tripped me up the most.

At least you aren't arguing with me or calling me "backward". A person's choices are first and foremost his own but I cannot help how I was raised. There are words I would not repeat applied to men who prefer the company of other men, but I won't deny with my background I never blinked at hearing them said. As previously mentioned I knew none who might find themselves in such a situation, so it was a matter to which of course I never had cause to give any thought.

Since it sounds so confusing to you then hopefully you'll not check me for confessing myself baffled. You were attracted to your wife and have spent your life feeling only a natural interest in women, yet now you're interested in him and that feels...right, to you? The impulse is exactly the same but to a member of the same sex this time? I don't understand how this could be. Surely there must have been something more dramatic involved.

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